FS told me this:" when u are thinking of a woman, its really damn difficult to serve army."

well, i totally agree.

cause it seems week after week.

my book outs i look forward to them.

reason its because i hope i can see her.

not much in demand. a dinner or an outing will do.

but sometimes things cock up. time cock up.

shorter weekends given. or she s busy.

i would admit i like her.

but i m not rushing into anything with my best efforts.

thats because i m still not familiar with her personalities and behaviours.

one thing bout her, she s one fine lady.

who s enjoying her life.

hopefully i ll be given a chance.

to understand her more.

to talk to her more.

to meet her more.

next, i would say every army boy have things to complain about.

how army sucks

how army 'consume' our time

what sort of 'privileges' army gives us.

every book out, at TFT( tekong ferry terminal)

i always see this.

"It's not what you leave behind, it's what you'll gain in the days ahead."

to me, there are lots of ways to think or understand its meanings.

sometimes i think that.

although army is using up my precious 2 years, but they are training me up to be a man.

so that i ll benefit myself after this 2 years. maybe i ll get myself a better life, love life, a better job.

or maybe, i ll lose something now, but as time goes by, i ll gain something better, or maybe much more better than what i can gain now.

but whenever i see that message,

i always thought of,

whether i shld forget bout love life, and concentrate on the army now.

so as to be able to make life easier for me in army.

or maybe

just concentrate on army, and during weekends try my luck to go after my love life.

which makes things more in a slower process.

well i would say happy endings are not that easy to gain.

overall, i hope things turn out well, cause i do not know how to express myself towards this dilemma i m having.

lastly, an update.

today its saturday, and i m booking in at 1825.

tml early morning will be my first day of outfield,

hope things goes well for me.

i just wan things to go smoothly.

may the blessings be on my side.

take care my friends, the ones i cherish.